my peregrination in love-*

.Sunday, July 23, 2006.

i've moved.. this blog is Now Officially dead.
But the tag board is still around..(:

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|3:21 PM|

.Wednesday, July 05, 2006.

call mi childish.jealous..irritating..or arcade addict.say don care wad i say..
say wadever u wan..doesnt matter.anymore.ur whole heart also not with me anymore..
u know wad?!
i HATE STITCH.
reminds me of u u u ..

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|10:31 PM|

.Wednesday, June 21, 2006.

i went to sentosa yesterday with eunice.
stupid weather.no sun.drizzle.
when we went to bathe.
the sun came out..nanapok.
but quite ok. carried a 5 kg dog to the beach.
bathed it..den took her to my pet shop to cut nails.
surprisingly. she never struggled. ate then slept.
so tired.
oh ya.. i brought my SPONGEBOB towel which my darling bought for me to the beach too. hehe. so happy to use it.
hehe,
den after work when to my darling's house with ginger..ginger so happy..run around the house.
den his mum cut fruits for her to eat..lol.
his mum actually like ginger..lol.lucky pig.

today stayed at home the whole day. so bored. miss my polar bear..lot lots..

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|11:16 PM|

.Friday, June 16, 2006.

holi le.but still workin..
so much things to do.
watched cars.so nice.hehe..world cup..yes!!
GOAL....!!! england all the way...

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|12:35 AM|

.Sunday, May 21, 2006.

i sprained my neck yesterday.
cant move properly. neck so painful. like kana chopped in the head like tad.
haiyo.. i suck at break fall.maybe its becos im afraid of heights.hm..excuses.i think i just suck la.
laugong..don sad le la. at least u still have laupo.i tml cook for u k? hehe..
die..
i forgot to do my business plans for ecd.die die die. supposed to hand in yesterday.die la..
gtg rush le.haha..pei pei found my blog..i tot no one knows..keh keh keh..
my neck hurts a lot. horrible.
anyways..i cut my hair short short..now like so little hair..lol...

anyway..here are some pics from friday..
hehe.
all the drunkards...haha.

the four who drank by the roadside..
and got chased away by the fear of shop owners making a police report on "Underaged drunkards drinking by the roadside.."

pam pam looking happy with 2 bottles of beer. haha. she was so HIGH la.
keep asking for her aeroplane to come and fetch her..lol.

me and pei pei at the void deck..taking photos of ourself looking happy after clearing our bladders at the horribled-supervisor-filled eskibar. pam was their customer afterall.. so bad.

kk..gtg..do my project. so stressed now. my fren frm another class got same business idea as me..argh.

p.s. i love my polar bear laugong who works at e cold cold igloo..hehe. hugs. :)

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|1:06 PM|

.Monday, May 08, 2006.

heh-heh-heh.
i realised im recently very money-face $_$..
why?
firstly..my course is making me money faced.
cos we study how to make money..money..money..and more money..
we practically study about money like that..cos i hear money every lesson.
den..in our everyday life..
we have money. money to pay for food. money to buy my fav seaweeds.
if i no money buy seaweeds. i'll be upset.
most importantly i need money money and more money to buy a new wallet..more heels..
last but not least money to find back breezer..cos with a lot of money i probably can post on tv.."missing dog"..so everyone will know..money to get corgi for my darling..
he wants it so badly..and its contagious for a pet lover like me.doh..
see..so much demand that there is scarcity of resource(money)..oh..btw..its economics..and i study money in it too..
almost everything is related to money..
tads y i think i tell u i not money faced also bluff u one la..

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ho-ho-ho..
omg.im hopeless..

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|11:57 PM|

.Saturday, April 29, 2006.

its been a long time since i updated.
hehe.these few days my mood a bit happier.
cos finally found the location of breezer. just need to keep in contact with the person can le.
hehe.nothing tad cannot be found.just tad u need to have the determination.
school started this week already.yay! back to studies and stress.. ha ha. i like.

i wanna pursue my passion for volleyball..my dreams of being a national runner but im currently in kickboxing. haix. how i wish i can do all these 3 things together. but im being too greedy. it will affect my studies. haix..how how how??? i really miss volleyball and running. maybe i will go back to track real soon.

btw..i saw recently on tv a hot mama with 2 children featured in FHM. wah..i wish i can also.haha.but i CMI(cannot-make-it). i think even if i make it, i bet my husband sure dont allow one. so sad. it will forever be dreams. dreams..and dreams..
sometimes i wish i were single. cos im free to do wadever i like.. be what i want to be.. be what i really am. but too bad. im attached. haha.so sad..but nvm..love is blind.. love is powerful. it can change pple's lives but can also destroy if not careful. so have to be careful.

wahahaha..i think im mad.by writing all those ive wrote.if my bf sees it..he sure ask me to get lost..den don want him..haix..but..HEY! this is my blog. freedom of speech is allowed right? if u don like wad u see..u can dont see right?!..haha..all are my opinions and thoughts.maybe someday i will lock my blog away. so only mi myself and i can see.and record all my thoughts in private..hohoho..darling going to say i selfish..don wan2 share with him..but i scared u angry wad.i scared i write sth wrong to make u angry..example.when i said the open minded ang moh husband..u ask mi get lost..i scared u really don wan me wad..sorry la..i was just thinking aloud..don angry k.? actually i got a lot of things i wanna do but i don dare..scared darling don allow den angry..

so late le..i think my brain not working properly.i don know wad i typing..i nid to sleep. oink oink.. lol...okok..night nights..Love u my darling (:

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|1:32 AM|

.Monday, April 17, 2006.

thank u kenny.. thanks..
lol..the bunny was so cute...
thanks..
it really cheered me up..breezer is missing..i'm worried sick..where can a dog go by itself.. hope i can find it soon..i miss her...im sorry i nvr reply ur letter..i didnt have the time..but i will soon..

phew..finally the camp is over.. so much frustration..so much pain..so many misunderstanding..so much fear..all gone.. but the wonderful memories will always stay..living a legacy itself..

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|2:09 AM|

.Saturday, April 08, 2006.

my heart very very pain.
i don know what to say.
maybe i will hide myself and rot away.
or maybe even if i kill myself now.no one will know.

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|12:43 PM|

.Monday, April 03, 2006.

see la..
never get enough nutrition..
now sick le la..so horrible.
keep sneezing non stop..i think my nose going to drop off le.

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|12:18 AM|

.Saturday, April 01, 2006.

so busy nowadays.
don even have time to sleep.
den my house like hotel like tad.
sometimes go home sleep but most of the time outside.
spend so much time in school preparing for camp and stuffs tad the school like become my second home.hm..i wan a week off..to have a good rest.i hope bird nest and chicken essence will drop down from the sky so i can replenish the nutrition in my "overly-stuffed-with-junk-food-and-stress" body.

hehes.10 mths le (:

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|12:32 AM|

.Sunday, March 26, 2006.

haha..got back my results le.
quite pleased that i passed everything.
but just tad there is no A.
but i'll just be grateful for the increase in my GPA.

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|11:37 PM|

.Friday, March 03, 2006.

exams over.
results.i don wish to know.
depressed lei.

anyway.i looking for job.anyone got intro?

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|11:23 PM|

.Sunday, February 26, 2006.

holy cow..hai. i lost my W900i.
it meant so much to me. hai..
how can i stop thinking about it?!
sob sob. i wish money can fall from the sky so i can get i new one.
but even so, it will not be the same as before.
hai. as i had once said. once broken, it can never be the same.
it the same as..once stolen, even if replaced it can never be the same.
there's always that scar left behind. hurting ever so badly.

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|1:28 PM|

.Friday, February 17, 2006.

mood now = CRAP SHIT FUCKED-UP SHUT-UP FRUStRATED..wadever.

wish u were here.

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|1:53 PM|

.Sunday, February 12, 2006.

i realised something.
im getting fatter and fatter.
Girls..all of you might be going "oh-my-gosh?! FATS...how to get rid of them? so ugly.."
well..one word of advice..fats are not disgusing.they are actually quite good.
they keep you warm to a certain extend.fats gives u nice figure..why? u must be asking...cause..it helps u mould body into a more perfect shape..rather than those pokey bones.sticking out like branches.so awful.

anyways..whos cares about your figure that much when all that really matters or outshines your figure is your character or personality.but its more on character than personality.because a personlity is hard to change.so character is a better factor we should focus on.No point pretending being someone you are not,one day you may show your fox tail and everything may become worse.

for those who are attached,if ur guys really love u for who you are. they wont care whether u have a nice figure a not. they should care whether u are eating enough and getting enough nutrition. if your bf is those that care about your figure..forget it..just dump them..they are not worthy of u..imagine 50 years down the road.when u are old and out of shape.you would wan2 cARE more about ur health or getting botox to look good for ur him..come on man..at tad age u should be enjoying ur retirement..looking at ur children and grand children grow up healthy.

words of advice. have confidence in yourself. ur guy will love u no matter how u fat u are If they really love u.. im glad ive one tad really cares for me..hehe..he always takes care of me and worry whether ive eaten "bao bao"..hehes..even though he says im fat and always pinches my tummy..i know he still loves me for who i am..and i know he didnt mean and mind wad he says(tad i very fat).although i don deny the fact tad im a bit fat.lolx..

hey..chubby girls are cute too ok?! some guys love chubby girls..i mean comeon..at least they are nicer to hug better than hugging a stick.if u r too thin..its hard to find clothes tad really fits.take my sis for example..shes so skinny tad she cant wear most of the S sizes clothes as they are too baggy..furthermore XS clothes are hard to find.and the cuttings may not fit to ur bones structures..

im also not asking girls to go eat and eat and eat(like me)..pls..watch your health..do exercise regularly..and keep fit..nothing beats better than a fit body..not too fat..not too thin..hehe..
i think i talk too much..
i only just want to thank my darling for loving me for who i am..hehe..
i love u too..even thought u are "sporty"..hahaahaa..cute ok..and nice to make fun of too..hehes..
hope we wont keep quarrelling over trivia matters..and love each other more and more..
even though i disturb u a lot..oops..hehe..
sorry for making u angry today..i know im irritating.
but..i still love u..
*blush blush~* i shy le la..
bye bye..

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|11:14 PM|

.Friday, February 10, 2006.

a sweet is never sweet all the time.
its taste awful esp when u r feeling down.

just like love.
love is never sweet all the time.
sometimes love is so horrible.
and it tastes worse than a sweet.
i wonder why do we still love.
it tortures more terribly than hell
and hurts more than digging our heart out.

i wonder why sacrifice in love is often not seen.
often blinded by one's self own selfishness.
and also taking it for granted.

one word.
sucks.

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|7:32 PM|

.Monday, February 06, 2006.

hm..so tired.3 days of open house is finally over.im taking a break before my long battle starting from tomorrow to the end of the months.hehes.go go go. i will also try to keep fit from tomorrow onwards.try la.haha..so tired.don really feel like bloggin today. btw..the msia trip was fun fun fun..

here are some pictures which i took in a small town called port dickson.

me posing outside the house..haha..aint those signboards cute?

my malay cousin and me..she's such a sweety pie..

her little hand and mine..

the view from my uncle car.so cool! u can see the beach from the roadside.

beauty.

the staircase leading to nowhere???

"tsunami"..haha..i risked my life and took this picture..lol.

okok..enough photos for the day..gtg sleep and prepare for battle tomorrow..
nights. (:

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|12:12 AM|

.Monday, January 30, 2006.

haha..now in malaysia.will be back soon.
due to poor connection.
i shall end off here.hehe
more updates to be done when i'm back in singapore..
tatas..miss my darlings out there.

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|10:13 AM|

.Friday, January 27, 2006.

on second thoughts..i decided not to link glenn..
cos i think i should respect his decision of not wanting his blog to be publicised.
hmm..glenn.i can say is quite an interesting guy.dont really know what he is thinking about at times.but i percieve that he is troubled by relationships. he is rather concerned about divorce as i can see from his blog.

oh my..if glenn reads this.i bet he is thinking what the heck am i talking about him for.well.i guess im just pretty bored.waiting for my darling's lessons to end.
hm..to prevent further misunderstanding..i shall change my topic.

back to A Dream within A dream..
hm..saw this title from a book and inspired to find out the meaning behind it. A dream behind a dream is indirecting portraying a picture of an artist living a dream in order to pursue a dream.i think i pretty much understand what it means already. it means. an artist(actor/actress) in order to pursue their dreams of acting etc..have to live life of actor which is a dream itself. understand? yes? no?..then too bad..

haiz..so bored..why so long one..falling asleep le la.
his stupid lecturer..so long winded.blah blah blah..btw.i crashed his tutorial.and he knows.dangs* there he goes again..blah blah blah..just shut up and give them the answers and end lesson early..tml new year already.today give early dismissal cannot meh? people want to go buy new year clothes one lei.bored.at least all my common test finished for time being le.phew* for moments i thought i was becoming a nerd.

haha..peeping at my darling do work.he seems so engrossed with his work.so hardworking.haha.feel like pinching his cheeks.lol..see la..when you got nothing to do..you start thinking of stupid things.

the guy infront of me playing dota.using an IBM laptop and mouse..now waiting for it to load.then he connects the charger to prevent lagging.oh.got cheated.he's not playing.he's looking at playbacks.im so bored~~~

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|2:21 PM|

A dream within a dream..

i told glenn i would write something on "a dream within a dream".
whats that? actually i dont know. i saw a book in the library with that title so i just told glenn.
that asshole glenn..i will post his pictures here as i have promised.
muahaha..Glenn..there goes your "face". haha.dont be too panaroid. no one would want to take your pictures.no like they are very nice like that.bleah*

A dream within a dream.
What is that? is it when you were dreaming, in your dreams you dream you were dreaming of something..? maybe glenn can elaborate more. im too lazy to think right now..i cant wait to go bugis with my darling to buy my new year clothes later. haha..maybe i will blog about this issue another time after asking glenn wad the hell is it.

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|1:46 PM|

.Tuesday, January 24, 2006.

im taking a break from my revision for b stats test tml..its so horrible and confusing..i think until my head want to like go KA BoomM..hopeful i can pass it..with flying colors i don mind either..haha..today so funny...i woke up late for my tutorial.decided to skip that..den went to clementi to eat with my darling.after tad went to play arcade.haha..i intended to go to the afternoon tutorial and lecture..so i went to school..thought about my b stats test tml..so i decided to skip every lesson in the day and go take mc.den i went to do revision..
alright..pretty much a boring day...dohh*..nvm..at least i noe wont fail too badly for my test tml.
hmm..now trying to stick back the broken arm of my bear keychain..

i learnt something from it..Once Broken..its Hard to Fix it Back to the Way it Used to Be.

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|8:42 PM|

.Monday, January 23, 2006.

finally i created a new blog.
new year.new blog.new me.

i wanna cry badly. `teaRs.
|8:37 PM|